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Prenatal Depression Is A Real Thing

19th April 2017

Prenatal Depression

I met Sharon at a birthday party. The host had thoughtfully seated us together because we were the only moms at the table. She was cheerful and funny and we clicked right away — sharing ‘mom drama’ of course.

We both boasted about our amazing pregnancies but that is where our stories take a turn… I bonded immediately with CJ and my pregnancy high kept me smiling through all the poopy diapers and 3am feedings. Meanwhile, Sharon experienced prenatal depression. A term I never even heard of. Here’s this tough momma’s life changing journey…

W: How did you envision life to be as a new mom?

S: The happiest time of my life. My first pregnancy was so easy, I was actually walking on clouds with a rosy glow. My son, J came out in 40 minutes! I didn’t even know I was in labour until the student-doctor insisted that he saw a tiny head pop out and I had to push pronto!

Growing up, it was never a question of whether I wanted to be a mother. It was a matter of when. Before my son, I never even held a baby! I was raised in a traditional Chinese home. Often there was no rhyme or reason but you just do things… graduating university and getting a job is expected. There is no such thing in Asian culture as taking a gap year to travel or figure stuff out. I got married at 26 and in two months, I was pregnant.

There wasn’t much talk about the challenges of being a mom and definitely topics around mental health were ‘swept under the rug’. So I thought everything would fall into place and I’ll just naturally morph into a super mom right after my delivery.

W: Sounds like you had this pretty picture painted in your head about motherhood but what was it really like?

Life with my first son was actually quite easy. I had time to recover and relax because there were so many extra hands and eager grandparents helping out. When I had my second son, I experienced bouts of ‘baby blues’. I mainly brushed it away thinking it was probably due to stress from the demands of my job. I chalked it up to be one of those cliche phases in life that would pass.

My husband and I flip flopped on having a third. Being an only child, I always dreamed of a big family. Three felt complete. I had an extremely tough pregnancy with C. Every nasty symptom listed in those pregnancy books, I got!

At my first trimester doctor’s appointment, I simply fell apart. She recommended I see a psychiatrist and that’s when I found out I had prenatal depression. I knew about postpartum depression but never even thought you could feel this way before the baby was born.

I cried daily for 4-5 hrs. My husband stood on the sidelines feeling helpless. My boys had no clue because I would put on a mask when they were around. It’s true when they say that depressed people make the best actors. I was clouded with the darkest thoughts. Even prayed for a miscarriage. This may sound ridiculous now but back then, seeing squirrels playing outside made me jealous and cry — because they had the freedom to prance around and enjoy life.


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10 Surprises That Motherhood Pulled On Me

6th March 2017

Mommy and Baby

You can still go on date nights.

Rejoice! Hubby and I thought we would be forfeiting our 2 date nights a week tradition after CJ was born but it’s three years later and we’re still making it work! Babies are more adaptable than we think. If you train them right from the beginning, they can sleep anywhere. We just had to adjust our dinner time to after 8pm then we would pop CJ in his stroller and take him with us to restaurants, events and yes, he even sleeps through concerts!

Here’s a list of our favourite family friendly restaurants in downtown Toronto.

Carrying a baby or chasing a toddler does not count as exercise!

It didn’t take long for me to get back to my pre-baby weight of 110 lbs but ‘skinny fat’ is a real thing (as a friend subtly hinted at me)! So after three years of fooling myself, I got my less than perky butt back into the gym and enrolled in Class Pass to get fit.

Think you were exhausted that first year? You don’t know what tired is (yet)!

Newborns are intense with all that crying for no reason. And my gosh breastfeeding was a part-time job in itself! But toddlerhood is another beast… to entertain CJ for an hour, I’ve got to think of six different things to do. And every night when he’s asleep, the mom chores continue. Expect to be crawling around picking up toys and cleaning pop stained (toilet training) underwear.

Because of #3 you WILL become that ‘I won’t be like that’ type of Mom.

No iPad until he’s two I told hubby and he agreed. We caved in around 18 months… or else we would get nothing done!

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Twas The Night Before Christmas

24th December 2016

Christmas Eve

The magic of x’mas. So perfectly captured in this photo. Me putting the final touches on the tree. Him peeking out and having no clue the presents underneath are wrapped toys. Hubby with my parents cooking dinner. Warm and cozy back in my childhood home.

Happy holidays from our family to yours!

#ToddlerTuesday: Camera Shy Kids

20th December 2016

Casa Loma Christmas

3 pretzels, 1 fruit strip and 1 candy cane later… I finally got him to stand long enough beside this Christmas tree at Casa Loma to take these (blurry) photos!

Seriously I envy you if you have little ones that are not camera shy!!!

So what’s the secret? I asked around and here are some tips and tricks from other photographer parents…

  • If you are using the camera on your phone, set it to burst mode. Surely you will snag one good photo from the dozen!
  • Get a stranger to take the photo.
  • Ask them to say something silly like “sushi popsicle” or focus on another object instead of begging them to look straight into the camera.
  • Go for candid and put the pressure off of everyone to stand picture perfect.
  • Opt for a selfie instead and let them help.
  • Allow for silliness and stop nagging. The more you ask, you know the more they will run off or cover their sweet little faces… after all, kids sure know how to push our buttons!

How do you encourage your kids to be less camera-shy? Please share in comments and check out my other city mom posts with more adventures and practical tips. 

#ToddlerTuesday: Tantrums

6th December 2016


Tantrums are inevitable. And toddlers know how to time them impeccably to when you are trying to leave or get something important done!

Most of the time it’s over nothing. Like when CJ had a meltdown because he didn’t like the christmas lights! Yes, really!


When my son cries, that upside down smile takes up his whole face. I actually think it’s quite adorable and have to remind myself not to pick him up and squish him with a big hug!

So I do this one thing when he is having a tantrum…

Btw I don’t believe in time-outs or empty negotiations. I do believe in attachment parenting.

What works very well is simply giving CJ the space to experience his emotion, calm down and allow him to regain his control. <– Because isn’t that what it’s really about half the time?!

S C E N A R I O // For whatever reason, he gets very attached to his shirts. Not a specific shirt but it’s a daily battle to get him to change the shirt he is currently wearing. Sometimes he even throws the shirt and stomps on it!

S O L U T I O N // I tell him “You seem upset so let’s calm down. Mom is going to the kitchen now. Let me know when YOU are ready to put on your shirt.”

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#MondayMotivation: Grit

7th November 2016


Grit. So determined to go up the hill. Even though he hasn’t figured out how to pedal yet. He pushes with his little feet. Relentless, slow and steady. Only when he reaches the top does he tells me he is tired and needs a “hug” (which means to carry him).

Darling son, may you always rise to the top and take on life’s adventures with such courage, resolve and perseverance.

A little nudge for all of us from my 3 year old son that if there is a will, there is a way.

How To Chose The Right Preschool

9th October 2016

Montessori Casa

It’s that frightful time of year again. And I’m not referring to Halloween! We are talking about school tours and admissions. When cheque books emerge and pens are poised to fill out applications while toes are crossed for good luck.

Where to send your mini-me’s (basically finding a second home) is a big deal.

Especially as a new mom the process can be overwhelming and shockingly expensive. Application fees for city (private) schools range from $100-250 each… so you can be placed on a wait list right? How frustrating!


I just finished my round of tours for both Montessori and International schools. Here’s a list of  important questions to ask and things to consider that I came across in my own quest to find the right pre-school…

Get organized!

Plan at least a year and sometimes more in advance if you live in a big city! Especially in the toddler level, most moms in Canada finish their mat leave after a year so spots fill up fast. You can request a school tour anytime but open houses are typically in September thru November. Acceptance is usually offered in February when most schools start planning their next year.

What are their payment and cancelation policies?

Schools operate differently than daycares. They typically allow children to start anytime (if there is space) however, there are a few that have “terms” beginning in either September or January. Be prepared to submit post-dated cheques in advance. Most schools have quarterly payment plans. There are some that offer a discount if you pay the year in full or have more than one child attending.

Cancelation is strict. Unlike daycare where you just give 60 days notice, if you move or change your mind, you need to plan way ahead and stop payment sometimes 3-6 months in advance. At my son’s school, once you send in the cheques you will not get a refund unless you find a replacement to fill the spot.

Consider the commute time

There are some great schools located midtown Toronto but we are not quite ready to leave our downtown life (where we walk everywhere) so we prioritized schools that were within 30 mins walking distance.

For schools located further,  we did a trial run – mapping out different routes and keeping track of the time it took to get there (in rush hour).

Be realistic! After bribes and threats to get your kids out the door do you really want to sit in gridlock traffic or deal with road closures or people who forget how to drive as soon as snow hits the ground?! Alternatively ditch the car and consider the TTC.

If you drive, is there temporary parking for drop-off and pickup?

Food: To pack or not to pack?

Schools will either ask you to bring your own lunch, offer a lunch program or have an in-house kitchen. Remember to ask if food is included in the tuition and get some sample menus!   

What is the Student:Teacher ratio

Typically this is 5:1 for babies and toddler and 7:1 for children ages 3-6. (In US it can be up to 12:1 for preschool.)

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My Journey Of Firsts

11th November 2015

Pampers Firsts

My first year as a momma was an indescribable mosh pit of love, happiness, excitement, poop and lattes.

It’s hard to imagine that not too long ago we were sleep deprived and clueless parent trying to figure this baby thing out… and now our very curious and rambunctious little boy has turned our condo upside down! Where did time go?!

I finally understand the saying “the days are long but the years are short”.

A trip down memory lane…

As I was sorting through hundreds (maybe even a thousand!) photos to make this collage, I got to relive so many “firsts”. It was so hard selecting just 16 but here are my favourite moments:

  • The day I became a mommy and my life changed (for the better)
  • Our first Christmas!
  • Sitting up by himself for the first time
  • First solid food (yummy avocados)

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